So I thought I'd update here before I hit the hay, again. God, for being such a busy month, November sure does suck balls. xD

( Life schmozzle )

( Supernatural S5.8 Spew )( Supernatural S5.8 Spew )( Supernatural S5.8 Spew )

( NaNo-rant )

I should go to sleep, now, to make sure I get better fast.

NUTT-A-CRACKA!

xoxo

Edit: I'm bad. I didn't go to sleep. I got myself a Supernatural emoticon theme thing instead.

A good start to NaNo; I'm happy about that.

Still, today I feel funny. It's either because I haven't showered, or I am just having one of those cold days where everything is a little depressing.

I wanna finish my comic. >.<

I wish that you'd just tell me what it's been like, instead of making me worry about you.

now, to get some comfort food and finish the damned thing.

xoxo

Did anyone else see Jackson Rathbone in that episode of Criminal Minds? I actually respect him as an actor, now. Also, he does a disturbingly good job of being a woman.... I was actually turned on by him as a lady more than I was by him as a man. Does that make me a bad person?

So I'm just procrastinating, right noww.

I'm very excited for Halloween. Going to go trick-or-treating with a good old friend, and we're going to be totally stupid, and in the mean time I'm having a party that I hope will be good. I can't have as many people as I wanted because of The Hiney (h1n1), buuut that's life. Hopefully everyone will get along and we'll have a good time being retards.

I am also dying of excitement for NaNo. I've been collecting icons and put up my calendar for November (it's Supernatural themed! LOOOVE.).

I'm trying to convince my mom to buy a package for her and I to go to Vancouver for a SPN con in 2010. I hope it ends up happening... *fingers crossed* (If I get a picture with Misha Collins, like I hope to, I am SOOO putting it up all over the internet. hahaha.)

In the mean time, there was an extension for DeviantDead so I took a bit of a break and I'm gonna finish it up this weekend. Finishing a comic and starting a novel in one weekend = bad. XD

I've done so much baking and cooking lately, learning all this new stuff, I want to start a blog about learning to cook way later than most people do. I won't, cause I don't have the time, but it'd be fun.

Today, my school had a pancake breakfast thinger that goes all morning. I was working as a hostess, and I met a man with a nose the size of my fist (i'm drawing him, don't worry), adorable 86 year old twins who have lived together their whole lives and are named Arthur and Allan, and I wanna marry them. And I also made some new friends and had a boy flirt with me for the first time since the breakup, and all in all it was a really good day. Oh, I also met a local DJ and he was really awesome. Then I got a migraine and that was a bomb, until I got to go to choir, when I fought off my migraine with THE POWER OF MUSICCC.

My wrists hurt. BYE!

love.
xoxo

Dean Winchester. Cliche, I know, but it's simple; he's hilarious, sweet, surprisingly deep when he wants to be, has very similar views on life... I love him. And yes, he is very attractive, and that's helpful. :P

If I couldn't have him, then it'd be Spencer Reid, from Criminal Minds. He's sweet, incredibly brilliant, hilarious, quirky, pretty darn cute, and really romantic when he's in love. ^-^

SO NOW YOU KNOW. Both ends of the spectrum.

xoxo

Guess who hates her life today?!

I'm just asking for real life to be like my dreams. Is that so much to ask? Reach out to me.

Really good question. Honestly? I guess I'd say "I'm sorry" to... Sheri-D Wilson, 'cause I really did hate her so much. And she is just such a sad human being, and needs someone to love her. So I would apologize for making her so afraid, and give her a big ol' hug, and wish her all the best.

And as for "I love you", I would want to say Eliot, but I think he already knows. Maybe I would have told him at camp? I don't really know. See, i don't live my life with regrets, so this is a tough one. ><

Today was another good day. I got a copy of "Waiting for Columbus" by Thomas Trofimuk, who is love. I don't like to admit it, but I think I have an old-man crush on him. Anyway, it's really good, so far.

I also bought my step mom her birthday present, and the whole birthday craziness went over pretty well.

On top of that, I got gloves for my Halloween costume. i was hoping to just find some faux-satin opera gloves, but the trick was that they had to be black. Of course, this is the one year that no one is selling them, so I ended up having to buy some [really badly produced] pleather dominatrix gloves from Shoppers. They're hilarious! The pinkies and thumbs are too long, and the laces are all wonky... Too great. I'm excited to see how stupid they look with the rest of my costume. I also had to sew through the crazy papier machet/cardboard/SUPERHARD material of my masquerade mask to attach its ties, and that was interesting. Did quite the number on my left finger. o-o;

I picked up my sister's Christmas present, yesterday night! I got her a beautiful tea set from a store in the mall devoted entirely to tea... I'll take pictures at Christmas, 'cause I love it! Anyway, I almost broke it afterward, 'cause I was walking to the car, making fun of my dad for being cautious of the slippery ground and telling him he was cautious because he was "always drunk"... low & behold, who falls FLAT ON THEIR FACE, but myself. It was quite special. The tea set went flying, but thankfully it was very well packaged, so it didn't break. >.<

I'm really not feeling school, right now. I need a vacation. I don't know, I'm just frustrated with it. I think I may take tomorrow off or something, see if I can't figure out what my problems are. I just feel like I get more done when I am at home, anyway. And my stupid Math teacher isn't at school half of the time, anyway... grr! Ah well.

Anyway, the bottom line is that I'm happy. I'm still really unhappy about my weight, but I'm trying not to focus on the bad part of it, and just focus on how I can deal with it better. I am really eating more consciously, and it's just a matter of trying to find some form of excersize. I would just go swimming, but I can't find any gooddamn places that sell swimsuits, right now. The only place I found was Swimco, and it was INSANELY expensive, and then at The Bay, but the chest was too small. xDD And of course, part of my brain is like "Swimming is going to dry out your skin, more!" buuut I just have to start moisturizing even more, I suppose.

Anyway, that's what's going on right now.

Oh, and I've been roleplaying. I CAN'T HELP IT. I just really wanted to. I shouldn't have taken it on, but only 3 new ones isn't so bad, right? Heh... too many projects!! I'll be glad when my friggin' DeviantDead comic is done.

xoxo

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I met Hannah (leia_black) over the internet. It's a great story. I was looking over some old websites that I had hosted over on Piczo (dude, I used to be obsessed with that place... does anyone even use it? Does it even exist ? Oh my goodness!) , and I ran into this club that some of us had made when I was in, like, grade 3. It was dedicated to Harry Potter, and basically all we did was sit around being fangirls and eating junkfood and playing a board game or two, I think. I don't believe it lasted all that long.

Anyway, I ran into a new website that she was hosting, and I was like "OH MY GOD! LUNA!" because that's what I thought of her as, 'cause she used to look just like Luna Lovegood... now she acts like Luna, looks like a Weasley... how twisted.. hahaha, anyway! I digress!

I sent her this message, and quickly found out that she still lived in my town, but at the moment she was on a transfer to Wales. It was hilarious, 'cause it was like "I haven't talked to you in years, and now you're in Wales... random?"

We had some issues, but now we're pretty much all fixed, and I really love her lots! She's one of my best friends. I think it's hilarious that I found her while she was still in Wales. God, that seems like such a long time ago, now... In fact, I think that she even contacted me through an e-mail ages after we had a spat and stopped talking, another time...

Wow, that was really poorly written.

Anyway, I do think that the relationship is way more meaningful, and it's been really cool to know her. I miss not having her in town, but I know that we're gonna stay friends for a long time. :)

There are definitely a lot of people I wish I hadn't run into online, but I think my worst experience was when I was pretty young (grade 5/6, something like that) and I had just started to get comfy with the internet. I was Runescape, and I started a "relationship" with someone, and I ended up getting really close with them... like, I thought I was really in love with them. In the end, it turned out that it was a girl pretending to be a guy and totally leading me on, and I had made a total fool of myself with all of my friends and stuff. It was a bad experience, but whatever. It was a learning experience, all right! To this day, I am wary of online relationships because I get so emotionally attached. Even in character roleplays!

Love you all!

xoxo

WELL, GOOD FRIEND.

On a long plane ride, I bring along whatever I'm reading at the time. If I'm not reading anything good at the time, I buy something specifically for the plane ride. They're usually BIG ASS novels that will last me way beyond the plane trip, and they're usually well worth it. Really good choices for those situations have been "Vlad: The Last Confessions" by C.C. Humphreys, and "The Mists of Avalon" by Marion Zimmer Bradley. I was gonna say that it was by Anne Rice. XD If I don't feel like reading these, or I need a break or whatever, I will  read cheap magazines that I usually wouldn't, because they're fun to indulge on sometimes.

As for road trips, I can't read in the car anymore. Isn't that horrible? I had this horrible time in my life where my stomach/colon got really bad, and now I get quesy realy easily. No more car-reading or spinny rides for me! Two things I loved desperately! grr.

xoxo

There, you homosapiens! Is that not-emo enough for you?! Green, the color of life. Starry, which are FLAMING BALLS OF GAS AND LIGHT. And easier to read.

I DID IT TO PLEASE YOU.

And I got brand new icons to please myself. ;D

xoxo